i'm really angry right now.
well, not exactly..more like...dissappointed. i just failed my accounting test big time...i was starting to catch up, i got the second highest grade in the class on the second exam..but then after that, i didn't go to class twice and found out that we're having another test the next class from someone leaving campus as i was going in.
i was shocked of course at how little of an interval he was giving between tests, but the girl was nice enough to offer to e mail me the notes.......however....i never go the e mail, apparently she left out the underscore in my email address, so i was left to study what i could this morning...a few hours before the exam. i don't blame the girl of course, if it wasn't for her i would've been completely unprepared. but i'm so angry at myself for always doing things half assed.GOD.
ahhh.....but i know..i'll be able to pull through in the end.....there's two more tests after this....and i'll make sure i study...because i KNOW if i try i little, the stuff is not that complicated and i'll get it. but i've got a lot going on right now, trying to plan out the rest of my college career, worried whether i'll be able to graduate on time....my freakin economics class!
but....ok. how is whining about it gonna help....right?
i need to get my act togather (AGAIN) start getting things done...i can do it. i just need to manage my time properly, i don't have any time to lose.
hmm...i didn't mention anything art related....haha!
well....my next piece will probably be a collab with
she'll color whatever i draw, probably, it's very unofficial as of right now, haha! annnd, i don't really have any idea when i'll post something next..well, we'll see.


watcher who watch me.

hope everyone is well and happy in this new age of american history. i for one am very excited for the arrival of the change that we have all been yearning for.
anyways, politics aside, i have been in a great mood as of late. things have been going our way and so i am finally getting things done! thank god..
i FINALLY did the 'self-portrait', hah, sorry if it wasn't as realistic as some of you (nadia) hoped. buuut, laziness is a real disease that plagues me in the highest degree. someone, anyone, HELP! hahaha!
thanks for your continued support and i congratulate everyone, because whether you support obama or not, last night was truly historical and shows the great strides america has made since the dark days of slavery and segregation.
the dudes and dudettes:

helloo.........i...am...so exhausted....mentally.....physically.....spiritually
....anatomically......geometrically....
i don't even know what i'm saying! haha! aaw jeez..
so it's midterms week....my crazy econ professor converted the midterm to 6 online quizzes...sounds good, yes? NOOOO! some of these so-called quizzes had over 100 questions...and also, this interesting development made me realize exactly how heavily he weighs the online component of this course...which i had been paying ZERO attention to before, ergo, my grade for the online component, is, suffice it to say....horrendous...aaaagh!! i never do bad in school guys!! my GPA is 3.7!! i've never gotten a grade below a b in my college life!! 'sob, cry, wail'
ahem, anyways, so i wrote the guy a lengthy email, asking if he could open up all the previous online assignments for me, so i could catch up, i didn't make any bullshit excuses, i was honest with him and HOPE to god he'll reward my honesty otherwise it'll forever convince me that HONESTY is NOT the best policy....that's a challenge God...hahah! no no, i kid...i don't want to be smite-d...hehe.
SO, my good people, i humbly apologize, for the delay in my self portrait which i stress, will be in anime/ manga style, perhaps chibi...hmm, because quite frankly i'm not ready for the blow to my self esteem when i draw an ugly picture of myself from lack of skill, hahaha! i have drawn other things...for art class, but feel obligated not to put them up until i put up my promised deviation....any comments? should i put up the other thing i drew before the self portriat which could take God know's how long?
well, maybe if you knew what it was....
it's not in anime style, quite the contrary, really. it is a copy of one of leonardo da vince's 'grotesques' called the cari man.
it came out well if i do say so myself, i would put up both so you guys can compare..so...wanna see? haha!
anyway, so that's what's going down with me, i 've got anther midterm thursday, and one friday. wish me luck! i can't wait until this week's over!!!!
oh, and today is also my favorite cousin's birthday! he is entering the grown-up world, he is 18 today, so a shout out to him, he lives in new jersey (boo! ny all the way! haha!)uhhhhh...that's about all! thank you for everything my peeps! i'll be sure to holla at you with new drawings when midterms finish! (heh, hopefully)

hope everyone is well and taking care of business! i recently hit 3000 pageviews, and while that may not seem like a lot to many people on this site, it's a lot to me, and i very much appreciate it. I wanted to thank all my good friends on DA who always comment on my work, and just say that you guys are awesome!! haha!
i should probably do like a thank u drawing or something....hmm..well, consider it on the way...any requests? hehe, i've never done requests before.
anyway....i've been really busy with school, er...rather, busy with thinking about being busy with school. haha! i'm always like..i need to hunker down and study hardcore, but it never gets around to happening. A good friend of mine once told me that if you have a goal, write it down, because without setting that goal down in writing and promising yourself you'll achieve it, it's just a dream. So now....i will take Josh's sage advice and declare my goal to the world!!!!!!! I WILL START STUDYING FOR MIDTERMS TODAY AND WILL NOT REST UNTIL THEY ARE OVER!!!!!! how's that? hahah!
wow, i feel energized!!!
in other news, i turn the big 2-0 this week....it's a little depressing and a little exciting. i...hmm...i think i'm coming to terms with the fact that i'm not a kid anymore...that's a little depressing....but i'm also realizing, no matter how old i get, i'm still really a kid at heart. and that's what matters right? you're only as old as you feel? hahaha! i'm talking like i'm turning 50 or something, a mid-life crisis at 20 is unnatural!! hahahah! but nah, i'll be fine. i won't be doing anything crazy, like everyone's been asking me, but actually, it'll be a very normal day, i have school from 9 to 6 and then work till 2 am....so haha! no time for much, i really don't mind either,i'm not really the type to make a big deal out of my birthday. ah......20 years old.....that's gonna take some getting used to......
oh and a quick shoutout to my good friend for getting me to buy volume 1 of school rumble, it's quickly climbing my list of favorite mangas. THANK YOUUU! haha!
well, until next time everyone, good luck with everything!

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thanks for everything guys and girls! hahah!

hello everyone that continues to pay attention to my drastically reduced activity here in the virtual hub for artists , deviantart!
haha! so to recap, i said in my last journal entry, that i was taking a drawing class, well i still am. i don't think i'm 'learning' how to draw better per se, but, i think the practice is helping me improve. we've been doing negative space exercises and whatnot, it's good, but i kinda feel...i dunno, that it's not really my thing...but i have hopes that improvement in traditional style of art will correspond to improvement in my manga/anime style. hehe, i'm still drawing anime, just a few minutes ago i sketched a chibi link..which i will put up when i get home, i'm obsessed with link! he's the best character in Brawl, i don't care where he is on your tiers or whatever...link rules!!!! ahem...anyway, i haven't had time to play that recently either, 'sigh' i'm actually trying to catch up in school, and NOT doodle in my accounting classes, and you know what? i think i'm starting to get the hang of it! as for economics...ha, well, i hate my professor, he's a racist fat old white guy, who talks about cheese and blueberries...it's ridiculous. i don't understand how he's still 'teaching', if you can call it that, anyways, thanks for your continued support, i very much appreciate it, you guys are so kind and encouraging, i don't think i would be drawing nearly as much if it weren't for the feedback i get from everyone, really. haha! well then, till my next deviation!
Thank You!!!!